My type of writing

 As a high school student, I used to have a teacher, who taught me to write down whenever I would feel suffocated by my own feelings. So, I usually write when I have too many thoughts running through my mind. It is a therapy; in fact, it is more like an exorcism that expulses the demons of my fears and frustrated emotions.  

Writing became an addiction. However, it is difficult for me writing concisely, especially in English. I use to write harangue texts, creating ambivalent thoughts on the mind of those who reads my essays. 

My goal is to become a more consistent writer. I want to be able to express my ideas and theories clearly. In order to achieve this ability, I have been attending several online courses and reading a lot. I know it is going to be a difficult journey, but I´m ready for it. 

     Brazil is not only the carnival and soccer country but one of the most violent nations around the world. In this country, "there are as many homicides as the United States, China, Europe, Northern Africa, Japan, Indonesia, Australia, Canada, and New Zealand combined." Daily, more people die victims of violence in Brazil than in the conflict between Israel and Palestine. The low quality of the educational system, the social inequality, and the tradition of corruption can be the main reasons for this situation.

     A military dictatorship ruled Brazil from 1964 to 1988. During the military regime, "an education reform denied the children any kind of philosophical or political instruction"(GOUVEIA, J.G. QUORA); the intention was to keep the population unconscious about their condition. This created a culture of neglecting education in Brazil. Despite the fact of the military regime was over about 30 years ago, the situation of the educational system in Brazil is almost the same. According to Brazil’s Indicator of Functional Illiteracy, 27% of adults between the ages of 15 and 64 have only rudimentary reading and writing skills. Nowadays, if any person wants to have access to 'a better' education in Brazil, this person must have the resources to pay for it. Consequently, the poorest Brazilian do not believe that education can change their reality, and many children do not finish school. Out of school, these young people are easily enticed by criminal gangs.

     In 1988, after years of violent repression from the military forces, the constitution of Brazil was announced; seeking to guarantee all manner of rights and restricting the state's ability to limit freedom. However, the constitution text is confusing what created a perfect scenario for privileges and impunity. For example, Brazil Prisons offer their prisoners to reduce their sentence for 4 days (up to 48 days/year) for every Book they read and write a report about it. The criminals have little or nothing to fear by way of punishment. In addition, several people in the police force and the political system are involved in the organized crime. The inefficiency of the judicial system is evidenced by the fact of about 90% of murder cases, in Brazil, are not solved.

     The violence is so usual in Brazil that it is common to be robbed on the streets, in any hour of the day. The most of Brazilian fear more the criminals than they trust the police force. Therefore, many people carry an extra cell phone (they call it the “thief’s phone”) so they can give it to the robber when the crime happens; because, it is common the thieves kill people who do not have any "valuable thing" to be robbed. In addition, the TV programs in Brazil defend two standards, from one side those that defend "The only good criminal is a dead criminal” to justify the nation’s staggering levels of police violence; on the other side the "victimization of the criminals". In the end, these two standards just increase the violence level across the country.

     Beyond that, Brazilian pay one of the highest taxes around the world; in 2018, since January 1st until January 19th, Brazilian have already paid about 1 billion dollars in taxes. Although, the distribution of wealth is unequal, and there are many corrupted politicians who share the money instead of solving the problems. According to Oxfam International (Oxford Committee for Famine Relief), "In Brazil, someone earning the minimum monthly wage would have to work 19 years to make the same money a Brazilian from the richest 0.1% of the population makes in one month", and "Brazil’s six richest men have the same wealth as poorest 50 percent of the population; around 100 million people. The country's richest 5 percent have the same income as the remaining 95 percent."

     In conclusion, without access to a good quality of education system or to an opportunity to overcome poverty, fearing the police force, surrounded by criminals, and living frustrated by an unfair social inequality, it is no surprise that many Brazilian would find in the violence the answer to face their reality. The "Eye for an eye" culture is disseminated across the country.

REFERENCES:

1. "Access to Quality Education in Brasil" - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pmkJX8MTJB8&feature=youtu.be Accessed January 28th, 2018

2. "Assessing Brazilian educational inequalities"- Rev. Bras. Econ. vol.62 no.1 Rio de Janeiro Jan./Mar. 2008

3. "Brazil education standards contribute to learning crisis" - http://articles.latimes.com/2012/nov/17/world/la-fg-brazil-bad-education-20121118; Accessed January 29th, 2018

4. "Racial inequality in the education system: The modern-day slavery that Brazil insists it doesn’t see" - https://blackwomenofbrazil.co/2017/02/24/racial-inequality-in-the-education-system-the-modern-day-slavery-that-brazil-insists-it-doesnt-see/ Accessed January 25th, 2018

5. "Social Inequality in Brazil: The People, Politics and the World Cup"- VICTORIA LIVINGSTONE https://www.fairobserver.com/region/latin_america/social-in-inequality-brazil-the-people-politics-and-the-world-cup-66971/

6. "Teenagers, Violence, and Crime in Brazil" Cléssio Moura de Souza, LL.M. http://f3magazine.unicri.it/?p=33

7. "Wage inequality and the distribution of education: A study of the evolution of regional differences in inequality in metropolitan Brazil" - Jose GuilhermeAlmeida dos ReisRicardoPaes de Barros Journal of Development Economics; Elsevier: 1991

8. "Welcome to Brazil, a Paradise of Impunity for All Kinds of Criminals" Augusto Zimmermann

9. Bailey S. Legacies of race: Identities, attitudes, and politics in Brazil. Stanford University Press; Stanford, CA: 2009.

10. Barros, R. P. d., Henriques, R., & Mendonça, R. (2002). Pelo fim das décadas perdidas: Educação e desenvolvimento sustentado no Brasil. TD 857, IPEA.

11. Blom, A., Holm-Nielsen, L., & D., V. (2001). Education, earning and inequality in Brazil: 1982–98. the implication for education policy. Working Paper 2686, World Bank Policy Research.

12. http://www.brazzil.com/content/view/10042/1/ . Accessed January 25th, 2018

13. Ianni O. Raça e classes sociais no Brasil [Race and social class in Brazil] Editora Brasiliense; São Paulo, Brazil: 1987.

14. REIS FILHO, Daniel Aarão; RIDENTI, Marcelo; MOTTA, Rodrigo Patto Sá. A ditadura que mudou o Brasil: 50 anos do golpe de 1964. Rio de Janeiro: Zahar, 2014.

15. SAVIANI, Dermeval. Política e educação no Brasil: o papel do Congresso Nacional na legislação do ensino. Campinas: Autores Associados, 2008.

16. https://www.oxfam.org/en Accessed February 11th, 2018

"Se você cair sete vezes, levante-se oito" Provérbio

Manter-me focada é um desafio, que tenho tentado sobrepujar. Minha mente é inquieta de uma maneira que ao mesmo tempo que penso sobre as obrigações diárias, o meu cérebro processa  a guerra no oriente médio, enquanto ouço música e como pipoca (...) CAOS. O mundo é movido a ações e não a teorias; com a minha dispersão de energia mental, acabo presa a palavras e pensamentos, mas sem mover um dedo para uma mudança real. 

Sou reconhecida por ser "fogo de palha" (expressão nordestina para pessoa que entusiasma-se com as coisas de forma rápida e intensa, mas que perde o interesse com a mesma velocidade); tenho a ambição de evoluir em todos os sentidos e muitas vezes até dou o primeiro passo, o segundo... o problema é sempre o último. 

Iniciar as coisas e não leva-las até o final! Esse é o meu problema. Não quero depender de outras pessoas para incentivar-me a manter o  foco, quero ser uma pessoa disciplinada. Sou daquele tipo de gente que possui dezenas de caixas para organizar suas coisas, mas que nunca coloca nada dentro. 

Sei onde quero chegar e o que preciso fazer para isso, mas manter-me no caminho é a grande questão. Como uma criança vislumbrada, me distraio com tudo, como se vivesse eternamente a velha parábola da lebre a tartaruga, sendo eu, obviamente, a lebre. 

Como consequência, meus sentimentos tomam conta de minhas ações, já que o meu cérebro está ocupado demais. É um verdadeiro picadeiro! Aqui estou eu mais uma vez, percebendo como estou me sabotando pela milésima vez, mas acredito que essa percepção em si, já é um avanço, pois o primeiro passo para a evolução é o reconhecimento daquilo que nos mantém presos ao nosso estado de infelicidade. 

Agora, espero continuar  até o fim da estrada. Já parei demais para "apreciar a paisagem pelo caminho". Sou minha principal oponente e estou cansada de apanhar. 

E a jornada continua...

Cumprindo com um dos meus objetivos no mês de fevereiro, vamos a minha postagem diária. 

TOPIC: "What is your zodiac sign and does it fit your person?"

My zodiac sign is Gemini. 

"GEMINI TRAITS

Strengths: Gentle, affectionate, curious, adaptable, ability to learn quickly and exchange ideas

Weaknesses: Nervous, inconsistent, indecisive

Gemini likes: Music, books, magazines, chats with nearly anyone, short trips around the town

Gemini dislikes: Being alone, being confined, repetition and routine."

Fonte: http://www.astrology-zodiac-signs.com/zodiac-signs/gemini/

Based on these traits, I must say that Gemini fits my person.

Desafios de um novo começo

Há 06 meses atrás, eu decidi mudar completamente a minha vida. Tomei uma série de atitudes que muitos consideram insanas, como por exemplo: sair do meu antigo emprego, no qual eu trabalhava há quase 10 anos, encerrar relacionamentos antigos, viajar para os EUA completamente sozinha e sem experiência, conseguir outro emprego em uma área completamente diferente do que eu estava acostumada até então, entre outras coisas. Entretanto, eu não sabia que a etapa mais difícil seria a que agora eu enfrento. O desapego aos velhos hábitos e o desenvolvimento do meu amor próprio.

As mudanças mais dramáticas sem dúvida tiveram o seu grau de dificuldade, haja visto que o sentimento, ao ousarmos sair da nossa zona de conforto, é assustador. Todavia, estas mudanças são as mais fáceis de realizar; mudar a si mesmo é o grande desafio.

Enfrentar as enfermidades da nossa alma é uma missão cruel, capaz de nos fazer perder a sanidade. Percebi o quão assustada eu estava, quando tive uma crise de pânico no voo de volta ao Brasil. Eu não conseguia me controlar, as lágrimas não paravam. Acreditei que era por deixar para trás as pessoas que conheci, mas hoje sei que era medo! Inconscientemente, eu estava em pânico por saber  oque teria que enfrentar ao voltar. A batalha contra mim mesma.

Uma das coisas que sempre fiz foi tentar agradar a todos. Sempre tive dificuldade para dizer "NÃO" a minha consciência era escrava da opinião alheia. Hoje, ainda não sou livre. O preço da liberdade é caro e ainda estou distante de quitar este débito. Estou pagando suaves prestações, mas ainda perco o foco facilmente.

Decidi desafiar-me com objetivos e metas mensais, pois percebi que há 2 semanas os velhos hábitos que acorrentaram meu livre arbítrio, estão voltando para uma revanche. O que eu não estou disposta a aceitar.

Postarei aqui meus 10 objetivos mensais e me sinto obrigada a cumpri-los, pois mesmo que ninguém leia este blog, o fato de comprometer-me por escrito a fazer algo, desafia o meu orgulho.

Dividi meus objetivos em setores:

FEVEREIRO 2018

Saúde:

- Eliminar 3 KG. até o dia 01/03

- Beber no mínimo 3 litros de água por dia.

Pessoal:

- Postar no blog diariamente.

- Ser menos "dependente" das pessoas

Educação:

- Submeter um artigo

- Concluir 2 cursos online

Profissional:

- Concluir planejamento semestral das aulas que irei lecionar

- Estabelecer uma rotina profissional e segui-la rigorosamente

Financeiro:

- Conseguir R$ 2.000 este mês

- Durante todo o mês, não gastar mais que R$ 20,00 com banalidades

Comprometo-me que no dia 01/03/18 postarei aqui o resultado dos objetivos de fevereiro e quais serão as metas para março. 

30 Days Blog Challenge - Day 2 "Write down 20 radom facts about you"

1- I can count the number of friends that I have

2- I cry easily

3- I hate beet

4- I don´t like to celebrate my birthday

5- I´m afraid of frogs and thunders

6- I love Disney

7- I hate losing. I´m really competitive. 

8- When I find a song I like, I´ll listen to it on repeat until I get sick of it

9- I often quote songs lyrics to descrive circmstances in my life 

10- Nowadays my favorite kind of food is Korean food

11- I get cold easily 

12- As a kid, I wanted to be a veterinarian

13- When I´m in love, I´m all in, heart and soul

14- When I´m upset, I just go to sleep

15- I love making people laugh

16- I love having/ giving massages

17- I love potatoes... like, any form of them; mashed, baked, chipped...

18- I love to sleep when it´s raining

19- I love dancing

20- I love to travel 

30 Day Blog Challenge - Day 1 - Where would you like to be in 10 years.

"Where would you like to be in 10 years?", this is usually a popular question among job and colleges interviews. We never know what the future holds, and thinking about the future is always a challenge. However, we must set our goals and planning how we will achieve them. Because, If we don´t know what we want in the future, how can we be prepare ourselves for it?

In ten years, after finishing my master degree, I want to work as a professor at a university; I see myself progressing in my English language proficiency, and helping others teachers as well. 

I hope to get married to a lovely, intelligent and funny man. It´s also my wish to travel to other countries with my husband, and after some time to have children, when both of us decide that it´s the right moment.

In addition, I want to have a comfortable financial situation, which allows me to buy a house, and living without worrying about money. 

I  know that many challenges are lying ahead of me as well; however, I´m eager  to experience what the future holds, and I´m preparing myself for it. 

Bonus

About 12 years ago, I wrote a list of 20 things I want to do before dying. Here is the list:

1- To Build a Healthy and Happy Family;

2- To read atleast 500 good books;

3- To watch about 500 movies;

4- To find 5 loyal friends;

5- To travel to 3 different countries;

6-  To travel to the 5 regions in my country;

7- To change someone´s life;

8- To be an English teacher;

9- To work as a volunteer;

10- To learn 2 foreign languages;

11- To save atleast 10 dogs;

12- To learn how to play any musical instrument;

13- To buy a house;

14- To help poor kids;

15- To have an organized financial life;

16- To write a book; 

17- To overcome my fear of frogs;

18- To help old people;

19- To have my own business (atleast for some time); 

20- To live each day as my last day.  

I must confess that I´m a little embarassed because I´ve forgotten this list for several years. Anyway, "Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." (BARRIE N. Tritie, 1997). 

Projeto: Melhorando meu nível acadêmico- Passo 1: How to Write an Essay

Dando o primeiro passo no meu projeto de melhorar as minhas habilidades na língua inglesa,  comecei o curso "How to write an Essay"(https://courses.edx.org/courses/course-v1:BerkeleyX+ColWri2.1x+3T2017_2/course/). Como prometido, manterei neste blog um registro da minha evolução neste processo. 

Quem leu minha última postagem, sabe o quanto fiquei envergonhada pelas minhas habilidades, ou melhor dizendo, pela minha 'incompetência' ao tentar escrever um texto acadêmico, motivo pelo qual decidi começar minha jornada para mudar este quadro, pelo curso que você acabaram de ler o título. Escreverei em inglês, até para poder praticar. Para traduzir para o nosso idioma, é só clicar na bandeira do nosso país no canto direito da tela. Caso, você fale inglês e perceba que cometi algum erro, por favor comente para que eu possa melhorar. Obrigada. 

It´s impossible to write a good essay without understanding how the grammar works.So, it´s necessary to learn how to identify parts of grammar. During the course I received  many suggestions of books and websites where I explored the grammar terms. My favorite one is Grammar for writing, by Joyce Cain, Pearson Publishers, 2012. I also studied how to identify the parts of a sentence what also includes to know the difference between a phrase and a clause. An effective sentence must have clarity, well-chosen vocabulary, limited number of clauses and prepositions, subject-verb agreement, and correct verb tense. About writing concisely, we must avoid redundancy, watch out for wordy phrases, make our subject clear and defined, use strong verbs, avoid vague words, and remove unnecessary modifiers. 

During the second week, I explored two of my weakness when I´m writting that are to keep the coherence and development. I usually have good ideas, but I rarely can express them in organized paragraphs that make sense to the reader. The most difficult thing for me is to focus on the main idea while creating logical connections between the sentences in each paragraph. It was also  in the second week when I wrote my first paragraph on the course website. It was a valuable experience; because we are able to receive comments from the others students who were attending the same course. My first paragraph was this:

Brazil is famous for the beaches, beautiful women, soccer, and music. However, many people don´t know that Brazil has as many homicides as the United States, China, all of Europe, Northern Africa, Japan, Indonesia, Australia, Canada, and New Zealand combined. As a Brazilian, I don´t remember if I have ever watched the news, and there wasn´t any murder victim during the day. The most of the crimes are for banal reasons, and it doesn´t matter the hour or the place; the violence in Brazil is scary. The low quality of the educational system, the social inequality, the trafficking of drugs, and the political corruption contribute to this situation. On the other hand, there are still good people in Brazil. Citizens who believes that one day this country will overcome all these problems. They work hard, and keeping a smile on their face; they daily pray to not become a homicide victim.

Hey, it was my first try, so forgive me lol. It will get better... 

The next topic was the hardest one for me. It was: Introduction to the thesis statement. It´s obvious that the first thing we must do is to establish our topic, but when I had to add an argument or opinion, my problems began lol. I had a difficult time trying to not put too many ideas in my thesis statement. Academic writing is not so easy as it seems, because it has a formal and organized structure, besides the fact that we must think about who we are writing for. Fortunately brainstorming techniques helped me to overcome my habit of writing unclear paragraphs. 

I studied hard while learning how to write longer essays. I always have had a hard time while creating strong introductions and conclusions, but I believe many people have the same problem.

Yesterday I just finished my second try of writing a longer essay. I´m waiting for the  evaluation of it; while this, I decided to post the essay here:

Brazil is not only the carnaval and soccer country, but one of the most violent nations around the world. In this country, "there are as many homicides as the United States, China, Europe, Northern Africa, Japan, Indonesia, Australia, Canada, and New Zealand combined." Daily, more people die victims of violence in Brazil than in the conflict between Israel and Palestine. The low quality of the educational system, the social inequality, and the tradition of corruption can be the main reasons for this situation.

From 1964 to 1988, Brazil was ruled by a military dictatorship. During the military regime, "an education reform denied the children any kind of philosophical or political instruction"(GOUVEIA, J.G. QUORA); the intention was to keep the population unconscious about their condition. This created a culture of negligencing the education in Brazil. Despite the fact of the military regime was over about 30 years ago, the situation of the educational system in Brazil is almost the same. According to Brazil’s Indicator of Functional Illiteracy, 27% of adults between the ages of 15 and 64 have only rudimentary reading and writing skills. Nowadays, if any person wants to have access to 'a better' education in Brazil, this person must have the resources to pay for it. As a consequence, the poorest Brazilian do not belive in education as a way to change their reality, and many poor children do not finish school. Out of school, these young people are easily enticed by criminal gangs. 

In 1988, after years of violent repression from the military forces, the constitution was announced; seeking to guarantee all manner of rights and restricting the state's ability to limit freedom . However, the constitution text is confusing what created a perfect scenario for priveleges and impunity. The criminals have little or nothing to fear by way of punishment. In addition, there are several people in the police force and the political system who are involved in the organized crime. The inefficiency of the judicial system is evidenced by the fact of about 90% of murder cases, in Brazil, are not solved.

Beyond that, Brazilian pay one of the highest taxes around the world; in 2018, since january 1st until january 19th, Brazilian have already paid about 1 billion dollars in taxes. Although, the distribution of wealth is unequal, and there are many corrupted politicians who share the money instead of solving the problems.

In conclusion, without access to a good quality of educational system or to any opportunity to overcome poverty, fearing the police force, and living frustrated by an unfair social inequality, it is no surprise that many Brazilian would find in the violence the answer to face their reality.

REFERENCES:

1. "Access to Quality Education in Brasil" - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pmkJX8MTJB8&feature=youtu.be Accessed January 28th, 2018

2. "Assessing Brazilian educational inequalities"- Rev. Bras. Econ. vol.62 no.1 Rio de Janeiro Jan./Mar. 2008

3. "Brazil education standards contribute to learning crisis" - http://articles.latimes.com/2012/nov/17/world/la-fg-brazil-bad-education-20121118; Accessed January 29th, 2018

4. "Racial inequality in the education system: The modern day slavery that Brazil insists it doesn’t see" - https://blackwomenofbrazil.co/2017/02/24/racial-inequality-in-the-education-system-the-modern-day-slavery-that-brazil-insists-it-doesnt-see/ Accessed January 25th, 2018

5. "Social Inequality in Brazil: The People, Politics and the World Cup"- VICTORIA LIVINGSTONE https://www.fairobserver.com/region/latin_america/social-in-inequality-brazil-the-people-politics-and-the-world-cup-66971/

6. "Teenagers, Violence and Crime in Brazil" Cléssio Moura de Souza, LL.M. http://f3magazine.unicri.it/?p=33

7. "Wage inequality and the distribution of education: A study of the evolution of regional differences in inequality in metropolitan Brazil" - Jose GuilhermeAlmeida dos ReisRicardoPaes de Barros Journal of Development Economics; Elsevier: 1991

8. "Welcome to Brazil , a Paradise of Impunity for All Kinds of Criminals" Augusto Zimmermann

9. Bailey S. Legacies of race: Identities, attitudes, and politics in Brazil. Stanford University Press; Stanford, CA: 2009.

10. Barros, R. P. d., Henriques, R., & Mendonça, R. (2002). Pelo fim das décadas perdidas: Educação e desenvolvimento sustentado no Brasil. TD 857, IPEA.

11. Blom, A., Holm-Nielsen, L., & D., V. (2001). Education, earning and inequality in brazil: 1982–98. implication for education policy. Working Paper 2686, World Bank Policy Research.

12. http://www.brazzil.com/content/view/10042/1/ . Accessed January 25th, 2018

13. Ianni O. Raça e classes sociais no Brasil [Race and social class in Brazil] Editora Brasiliense; São Paulo, Brazil: 1987.

14. REIS FILHO, Daniel Aarão; RIDENTI, Marcelo; MOTTA, Rodrigo Patto Sá. A ditadura que mudou o Brasil: 50 anos do golpe de 1964. Rio de Janeiro: Zahar, 2014.

15. SAVIANI, Dermeval. Política e educação no Brasil: o papel do Congresso Nacional na legislação do ensino. Campinas: Autores Associados, 2008.

16. https://www.quora.com/profile/Jose-Geraldo-Gouvea; Acessed January 28th, 2018.

20 dias que mudaram minha vida!

Como 20 dias podem mudar uma vida? Depois de quase 10 anos trabalhando para a mesma empresa, foi um momento muito difícil quando pedir minha demissão. Sou grata por tudo que lá aprendi. Só que chega um momento na vida de todos nós, onde nos questionamos se estamos seguindo o caminho correto na grande estrada da vida. 

Durante muito tempo minha vida era o trabalho, para o trabalho e pelo trabalho. Quando desliguei-me da empresa, passei por um momento de crise existencial. O que vou fazer? Qual o meu objetivo? O que quero? Será que vai dar certo? Muitos foram os questionamentos que passaram pela minha cabeça. 

Quando percebi o dinheiro da minha rescisão indo embora, decidi que precisava fazer para mim. Tomei coragem e decidi fazer minha primeira viagem para os EUA. O primeiro desafio foi conseguir meu visto, afinal uma moça de 28 anos, solteira, sem filhos, recém desempregada e sem nenhum bem próprio, como seria possível? Acredito que quando as coisas precisam acontecer, as coisas conspiram ao favor. Consegui meu visto! 

Como foi uma viagem de última hora, acabei gastando 3 vezes mais do que normalmente uma pessoa gastaria. Eu sei que é loucura, mas eu precisava daquele momento. A primeira coisa que me chamou a atenção foi o procedimento para voos internacionais. É diferente, parece que as pessoas são mais simpáticas rsrs, ou talvez eu estivesse de melhor humor. Foram mais de 14 horas para chegar a cidade de Chicago. 

Quando sai do aeroporto o frio era surreal, mas para não "ficar por baixo", fingi que estava tudo bem. Enquanto isso, até minha alma estava congelando lol. Nesta cidade tive experiências incríveis! Vi a neve pela primeira vez e não demorou muito para eu detesta-la, pois atrapalhava meu andar e queimava minha pele.  A altura dos prédios da cidade é uma loucura! Sei que estou parecendo uma menina do interior, mas é o que sou, gente! lol Andar de metrô pela primeira vez, visitar monumentos e passar 18 dias no Campus da University of Illinois Urbana- Champaign (UIUC), foram sem dúvida, emoções únicas. 

A coisa mais maravilhosa foi poder recuperar a minha essência. Senti-me muito bem, parecia que o mundo havia saído das minhas costas. Consegui entender porque existem imigrantes ilegais. É surreal como tudo é lindo. Tudo que vivenciei nesses 20 dias, me proporcionaram lições para a vida toda e o mais importante é que eu voltei a ter um objetivo! Um desafio! 

Decidi que quero investir na minha educação e ser a melhor professora de inglês que eu puder ser. Estou iniciando meu próprio negócio de aulas on line (momento merchandising lol) que é o www.247languages.com e pretendo voltar para UIUC no final do ano. 

Não vou mais esperar as coisas acontecerem e ficar reclamando da vida! Estou tomando as rédeas da minha vida. Sei que os momentos depressivos irão surgir novamente, mas não vou mais lutar contra eles, como quem luta contra a correnteza do mar! Deixarei que passem. Sem dúvida recorrerei mais uma vez a este espaço quando isso acontecer. 

Aderi a filosofia do Só por hoje! 

Hoje, decidi ser feliz e focada nos meus planos e metas. Decidi ser egoísta (sei que parece pesado), mas me colocarei sim como prioridade, sem machucar e nem passar por cima de ninguém. 

O ano mudou, mas o mais importante foi que eu mudei! Há os que não acreditam que 20 dias não são o suficiente para isso acontecer e que tudo isso que escrevi é bobagem. Não argumentarei, não debaterei, pois aos outros dou o direito de pensar o que quiser e a partir de hoje me dou o dever de ser quem eu quiser!